I feel this is a post I should have written a few months ago because it totally sums up how my life has been over the last few months. It’s amazing how your life unfolds in ways you never predicted hey. You just never know what’s gonna happen next in your life and I guess that’s part of the beauty of it. Last year I was working at a gym as a personal trainer in the City. Life was good. I had a great job in a great gym in the heart of London and I made some amazing friends within my workplace. Friends that I am still very close with. I truly believe that people come into your life for a reason and at certain points in your life because they teach you something. Or you teach them something. Or you help each other to become better people. There were a few people I worked with that are now such significant and important people in my life and I am very thankful for that. A few of them have really helped me on my spiritual journey, given me more confidence in who I am and reminded me that anything is possible with belief. Again, I am grateful for that.
Thing’s then went a little bit weird in my life (I don’t really want to go into detail because it’s in the past now). But they went a bit weird and at the same time I had planned a trip to Dubai with one of my best friends. The holiday literally couldn’t have come at a better time. We had the BEST trip ever!! My god, I had needed it. We did sweet f**k all for the whole holiday apart from sunbathe, relax, eat and party! IT WAS AWESOME!! Before the trip I decided to line up an interview for when I was out there. Just for a laugh really. I didn’t actually think I was going to get the job! But yeah so I lined up a personal training interview before I went and much to my surprise, I got the job! I was absolutely over the moon! What a perfect way to escape the weirdness back home and start a new life. A new chapter. A fresh start. It felt right. I told the whole world and his wife that I was going and literally couldn’t pack up my stuff fast enough! But obviously I had to wait a few months for my visa to be processed. They predicted it would take about 3 months to go through. It was too long to wait! Mentally I was already there.
Anyway, what happened over the next few months I would never have predicted. It’s funny how we think we know ourselves so well and we think we know how we are going to react in any situation, because we really don’t. I still constantly surprise myself. So at the time I was living out in Surrey and commuting into London everyday. It was a bit of a ball ache of a journey that I guess I had just become used to doing. But anyway, because I was set to move to Dubai, I decided to rent out my flat and move in with a friend in London while I was waiting for my visa to be processed. I packed up my life in Surrey, got rid of a load of useless s**t that I never used and basically got organised. It felt great to get so sorted and get rid of all my clutter. I took a load of stuff to charity and narrowed my belongings down to a few suitcases (quite a few to be honest but girls will be girls and I think I had 2 suitcases just full of shoes!). Anyway I waved goodbye to Surrey and thought I wouldn’t be back for a while. I moved in with my mate temporarily and started working at a local gym to keep the cash coming in while I was waiting for my visa. Everything felt a bit up in the air because I was living out of suitcases, unsure of when I’d be making the big move. But it didn’t matter. Because I was going to Dubai to start a new life.
I quite quickly fell into a nice little routine where I was and my daily runs that I had been doing for years, were now by the river thames. My favourite river in the world. There’s something about that river that I’m obsessed with. Maybe it’s because I spent a lot of my childhood by it when my dad used to row. But I love it. There was no better way to spend my mornings as far as I was concerned. “I won’t get this when I’m in Dubai”, I kept thinking to myself. It would be too hot to run outside. I googled a few indoor running tracks out there and thought that would work out ok. Anyway, the thing that had been weird in my life was now not weird (unlike how I sound right now:)) and I started to feel more like myself again. I was in London. My birthplace. I could hop on a bus to just about anywhere in the city and sit on the top deck with my music playing. I could run by the thames everyday. I could see my family at the weekends. “I won’t have all this when I move away”, I thought to myself again.
The gym I was now working in was awesome. Business was growing fast and my new colleagues were lovely. There were about 20 of us in total and all of us were super different but super close. Like one big family. It all seemed too good to be true. But it was real and it was happening. I had now made new friendships in my life that I really didn’t want to lose. My life felt good. I felt content. I had massively downsized my life to one bedroom in a flat share close to work. Everything was simplified. I knew exactly where everything was in my bedroom and I had far less “stuff” than I had before. But it felt f**king great to be living so simply. It’s amazing how little we need to be happy really.
So anyway, you probably know what’s coming. I didn’t want to go to Dubai. It no longer felt right. I didn’t want to upheave my life and start again in a new place when everything was going so well in London. Previously, when I had been imagining myself on the beach out there, the thought of it had made me feel really excited. But I didn’t have that same feeling anymore. My Dubai job emailed me to say that I’d be out there within the month. Holy sh*t! I didn’t wanna go. And I hadn’t even started looking for accommodation out there yet. Pretty symbolic I thought. So long story short (this was definitely the long version) I pulled out the visa process. I axed it. Didn’t wanna go, ain’t going, staying in London, I’ll scream and scream till I’m sick (no idea).
So here I am. Sitting in a coffee shop in South-west London in between personal training clients. And I wouldn’t wanna be anywhere else right now. I love this city. And I love my friendships. Life is about the people. The people you spend most of your time with. Whether it be your friends, partners or your family, life should always be about the people. My life is exactly how it should be right now. I truly do believe that everything happens for a reason. And that you have to trust your journey with all its twists. I also believe that living your life from your heart never fails you. The more I listen to and follow my heart, the happier I feel. Trust the timing of your life. You never know what is next but you’ve just gotta trust it. The centre of the earth can be anywhere you like. (That’s actually a Tom Hardy line from the movie Legend but ssssshhh).
Thanks for reading and speak soon,